This journal is memory to two beloved animals in my life of which I had both lost almost simultaneously following after we were forced out of our old home and the events that took place during the battle against my fathers life threatening illness. If you haven't Already, you can learn more on the subject in this journal
Choco My Beloved Cat
A rescue my sister found on the 18th, this little angel stole my heart right off the bat! Not only this little adorable ball of fluff was loving and affectionate little kitten inspite never being with humans before; but also brave and extremely caring. Cause even though we brought the little guy home to take care of him and first thing he did was to originally hide from everyone else; he put his own fears aside to come and check and comfort you if you were the one not feeling well. For some one so tiny he has a big heart.
The two of us did everything together, literally! This guy wasn't afraid of going anywhere or expressing him self so long as we were together. Shared even similar likes, and insisted that I shared with him even if he wasn't into it. Followed me by the heel whenever I was present, and waited anxiously for me if we were apart. (that's if he didn't escape and follow me of course!) Sometimes he'd frustrate me to no end, but we were a pair and I love him still to this day very much.
It was mid December when I finally decided to talk about it on Facebook; and it still hurts too much to talk about. All I'll say is this boy was my baby and the love of my life. I raised him my self since he was little and watched become a proud adult. And no other will compare or come close to the special place he'll always have in my heart. I will really miss him. Time to let him go.
Erza the Siberian Husky
Someone we adopted in hopes of her becoming a beloved member of a family. The exact date I'm not sure of. She's actually a mix of Siberian Husky and Malamute. A gift form my sister in hopes of me overcoming past trauma and the lost of my beloved Choco. We named her after the original character of the same name from the show/anime "Fairy tail"; whom just like her and her hair, her fur was red. She was going to be the first pet I ever razed with my partner.
After having her only for two weeks, and finally letting in this adorable thing into my heart, she became gravely ill and didn't receive treatment until it was too late. I tried to treat her my self as best I could since no vet here as even willing to see her unless I paid everything up front. But in the end I found out what she had too late, as she trough up and covered herself in blood in my arms. All I could do is listen to her whimper as she and I tried to sleep in the cold, before death finally took her.
My only regrets is that I didn't realize sooner, that I let my sorrow from the loss of Choco, to cause me neglect to some degree this poor animal, and I did not stay by her side till the very end. Even if it meant facing my deepest phobia, blood, or staying out in the cold. When you take in a pup, its the same as raising your own child. This honest and loving creature did not deserve to die that way, and those will be regrets I'll carry with me for the rest of my life.
I offer a moment of silence for them both, and hope they know their still loved and missed, wherever they are.
song: Tenohira de Kieru
~ by Akiko Shikata
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